Monthly Archives: April 2009

Letting It Slide……

When I was a few years younger, single, and living on my own, I was a slob. This is a well known fact. I was horrible at cleaning out my fridge, my clothes were all over my apartment as well as papers, make up, etc. Nothing had a home of its own. It was perfectly normal to find my hairbrush on my kitchen counter, and a plate of nachos in the bath tub. (okay, not really, but you get the idea)
Somewhere in the last couple years, something happened. I grew up. Bought some nice furniture. Started to take a lot more pride in my home. No longer am I the single girl with empty wine bottles sitting above her kitchen cupboards. Gone is the girl who left butter knives on the counter for three days encrusted with peanut butter, or god knows what else.
Somewhere in there, I turned almost a little bit OCD with cleaning. Everything has its place now.
That sock? Does that sock go there? No, it doesn’t.
Hey, Dustin, I love the look of your bike magazines all over the floor. Looks awesome. PICK THEM UP!
Why is this calculator out again? I just put it away? (For the record, the calculator is Dustin’s best friend.)

I like clean. I like the smell of clean. Bleach, febreeze, dish soap, any cleaning products smell amazing to me. I like having a dust free house. No fingerprints on the walls. (Which is almost impossible when your spouse is a bike mechanic) No juice/coffee/bottle rings on the coffee table. No pay stubs, mail or flyers all over my tables, please.

And you know what? THIS IS FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE NOW with a baby. And I am coming to terms with it. I can’t be Martha Stewart anymore. I have to let the dust on my t.v build up for longer than 18 hours. That leftover rice in the fridge? It might just have to grow a few organisms on it before I have time to chuck it out. And my plants, my poor, poor plants. They might just be suffering, a little bit. (I am now cheating with Miracle Gro)

I’m coming to terms with all of this. The laundry. The dishes. Supper. (Kraft dinner again? Sarah, you’re a regular Betty Crocker.) My baseboards? Covered in dust, hair, and whatever else they seem to collect. I’m trying not to think about it. Trying not to think about all random crap all over the floor in our bedroom.

There are more important things in life now, and I’m okay with this. Things are in perspective now. Play with Lillienne, sing songs to her while she smiles, trace my fingertips along her cheeks, or run around my house with a dust rag and make sure the garbages or empty? Go for a long walk and watch my daughter take everything in, or vaccuum my carpets? Give Lillienne a bubble bath and then cuddle her for hours and stare into her eyes, or organize the storage room?

Easy peasy, lemon squeezy.

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Wonderful Wednesday

Reasons why today is wonderful…

1. Lillienne didnt wake up at 4.30 am, like she did yesterday.

2. I have all my paints out, and I am ready to do something artsy.

3. Hump day – two more days until the weekend!!

What makes this day wonderful for you?

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I’ve been shopping again….

….And I think I may have made a great investment! I purchased a Canon Rebel the other day through Sears. If you have read any of my previous blog postings, you would think “Sears? You mean that place you cursed for almost a week straight?” Yes, Sears. They are horrible if you decided to shop online, but luckily, they had what I wanted in the store and I barely even had to speak to anyone. Point to camera. Nod. Pay.
Anyhow, compared to my old digital camera, this camera is something from outer space. It takes beautiful pictures, and I havent even figured out all of the functions yet. The settings are basically on the point and shoot mode and already all I want to do is go outside and capture everything. The woman crossing the street, the leaves on the side of the road, the buds starting to peek out of the branches.
Of course, when you have a 10 week old baby, (or any baby, for that matter) getting out to pursue your hobbies isnt the easiest thing in the world.
Which means I have resorted to taking 4329869 pictures of Lillienne.
Lillienne in her duck suit in her swing. *snap*
Lillienne leaning up against my green pillows. *snap*
Lillienne sticking her rather large tongue out at me, again. *snap*

I dont think I could find a more beautiful subject to photograph.

This weekend I am going to try and get out and take some proper pictures. I have always been interested in photography and tried to get serious with it before with my old digital camera, but I never got the results I saw with my minds eye. I always wanted to take my art more seriously and until now, I really wasnt able to without editing the shit out of my photos.

Thanks to Mom and J for inspiring me! And of course, Lillienne.

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The Green Factor

A friend mentioned the other day that since apartment buildings had such large areas for the tenats garbage, they should also have a recycling area. Brilliant. I wish.
I absolutely 100% believe in recycling. I just do not believe in having recycle bins next to my dining room table, or beside my bed.
I love apartment living for the most part. We’re right downtown, Dustin can walk to work, we’re across the streets from a pool, a gym, a park, the river, etc. The downside of apartment living?
No room for recycling.
Yes, we save our beer bottles, pop bottles, cans, etc, underneath the sink, in bags in the storage room, and there were even wine bottles in our front hall closet yesterday.
But, we also toss our papers, cans, plastic, etc. There just isnt ROOM for bins in the apartment that we live in.
We do have a pretty big balcony, and I am going to look for some large, heavy bins with good lids, bins that wont blow away in a windstorm, since we are on the 19th floor, soon to be moving to the 21st floor.
Does anyone else have some suggestions?
I hate throwing stuff in the garbage, Especially since our garbage fills up that much faster. We have to throw out flyers, formula cans (we use the concentrate and use atleast a can aday) and a bunch of ther things just because we have no room to store them until we can take them to a recycling facility.
Also, we dont have our own washer and dryer, or else we would be using cloth diapers. I hate hate hate hate disposables. We only have one wash day a week and if I were to buy enough cloth diapers to last 6 days between washing I would be bankrupt.
I love you, Mother Earth, help me help you.

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Dr., Dr., Give me the Pill

It is incredibly scary to think I could get pregnant again. Already. Yes folks, it is true. I have finished my first menstrual cycle since giving birth. I could totally reproduce another perfect child, if I wanted too. If I was neurotic enough.

The thought is very overwhelming, to say the least. I now know what its like to be pregnant. To carry a baby. To have a newborn. To get very little sleep. (Although lately, knock on wood, Lillienne has been sleeping wonderfully..) I now know how much our lives have changed. Was I really that naive, thinking “It’s not going to change that much!”?? YES! I was!

One slip, and I could be pregnant again.

One slip, and I could have two children under the age of 1. (Unlikely, but it could happen!)

As soon as my period ended, I was at my Dr’s getting a prescription for the pill. I had it filled immediately and I think I swallowed my first pill before we even got home.

You know what is weird??

I wouldnt NOT have a baby right now if I got pregnant. Isnt that ridiculous? I can PICTURE myself with another baby. Someday I will totally have another baby. But…what if?

What if I got pregnant in a couple months?

What would become of our tiny little 3 person family?

How would I cope? How would Dustin cope? Lillienne?

ALAS

I am so not having another baby soon. Cheers for the birth control pill. And cheers to my perfect daughter, Lillienne.

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Wonderful Wednesday

Reasons why today is a wonderful day:

Lillienne slept in her crib last night from 11.30pm-8am with only one night feeding.

The sun is shining and it is warm, perfect day for a long walk.

It’s Earth Day. Reduce, re-use, recycle, renew!

I have a pound of fresh strawberries that I am going to devour.

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Dont go

Kinsmen park is the cats ass. I love the tunnels the train goes through. The merry-go-round, the horses and tigers and unicorns waiting for their debut again this spring. The ferris wheel that’s in rough shape of a fix up.
Nah, lets get rid of it!
The City has decided to get rid of the ferris wheel because nobody in Canada manufactures parts for it anymore. Are you kidding me? How many metal/machine shops are there in the city? Nobody can replicate those parts? Ridiculous.
I remember going to Kinsmen park when I was small. Ripping around in the park, playing in the paddling pool, the old swinging red punching type bags where the maze now is. Picnics, flying kites, birthday parties.The slides were better, the grass was cleaner, and there were more swings and ropes.
I remember the train was my favourite ride. I liked the sound it made over the tracks and going through all the trees and waving to the people in line.
The merry-go-round always kind of made me sick, and it still does. The best part was always picking what animal you were going to ride, and the rest sucked. Going around and around and around and around..
The ferris wheel was probably the best thing about the park, though. You got to sit in a tiny little colored cage, and if you got stuck on the top, you were king (or in my case, queen) of the world for about ten seconds. You never got rid of the voice in the back of your mind saying “Is this thing going to fall? Let me off! Go around once more! Faster!”
They’re apparently going to get rid of the poor ferris wheel. What are they going to put in it’s place? A parking lot? The ferris wheel is classic. Fix it so I can ride on it with my daughter until she is embarassed to be seen with me.

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