Monthly Archives: January 2009

Baby belly pics and the babies room. In these pictures I am starting my 39th week. Two more to go, three tops (hopefully i wont be late….ahhh)
Thanks to my wonderful mum and her wonderful man for the babies room. Could not have done it without them!!
Every day there is a new surprise!! Last night I had a bath, got out, went pee, and and then went to sit on the couch, and something came out of me. MY WATER BROKE!…or so I thought.
Nope, I just pissed myself a little bit. How pleasant!! I didnt know this happened to pregnant women.
Also, thought the child was going to come in the fruit section of Sobey’s yesterday. Holy fuck contractions. These are not braxton hicks anymore. These are full on early labour contractions. Prenatal appointment on Thursday morning. Anxious to see if i am dilated/effaced at all.
xoxoxoox

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Ahhhhhh!! Stay in my belly, I changed my mind!!

Baby is still head down. Fetal heart rate was 144 beats per minute this morning. Cervix is still closed, but I have been having contractions with back pain again all day. Dr says she will hopefully see my next week unless I go into labour….??

Last night I was thinking…”WHAT THE HELL ARE WE GOING TO DO WITH A BABY?” I started to panic a little bit but I just lay in bed and shut the hell up because Dustin was already having a hard time falling asleep.
Just a little anxiety attack. I was running a million scenes through my head, and all of them included Dustin, myself, and….. a baby. It’s a little scary to think it will never, ever, be just the two us us, just him and I, for a long, long time. Of course I am really excited for the baby to come and start a new life with Dustin and our baby but in the back of my mind it’s like…holy f&*#(ing shit, we are going to be parents right away.
It’s sad to think that this chapter in my life is coming to a close very soon. Just the two of us, being ridiculous, doing spontaneous things, enjoying things as a secret little team, cuddling on the couch and making eachother laugh until we cry, doing/eating/saying whatever we want because who cares, its just us.
….And now there will be a new chapter starting, a chapter where it wont be about us all the time, where infact it might be so horrible at first that we’ll start to fight because we’re so exhausted, so emotionally drained from all this newness that we stare at eachother like strangers, so unprepared for everything we’re about to encounter, because what do you mean it’s NOT all about pushing the cute, cooing, baby around in the shops and cute outfits and butterflies and picnics and la di dah we’re a happy family??????
Of course I know we’ll be okay. It’s just there is so much uncertainty that lies ahead and I struggle with not being able to see the god damn future.
I know that we are in for a massive, drastic, life changing experience and that I can’t wimp out now, there is no eight and a half month after pill available at Shoppers Drug Mart….
I wouldnt trade being pregnant with our baby for the world. I am extremely excited for all the new experiences and memories and laughs that are on the way. I know deep in my heart worrying about all of this already makes me a good mom, and I know Dustin will be an amazing dad because he is just that awesome at everything he puts his heart into.
But that doesnt mean I can’t be SHITTING MY PANTS with anxiety.

xoxoxox

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Mooo.

I must stay away from the delicious birthday cake I made for Dustin.

I must stay away from the delicious birthday cake I made for Dustin.

I must stay away from the delicious birthday cake I made for Dustin.

Eat birthday cake. Follow with glass of Coke.

Prenatal appointment tomorrow morning at 8:45. At least I have completed all the invasive prenatal tests…
I was in the shower today and it was the first time in a long time where I tried REALLY hard to bend over and get a good luck at my crotch but there is no way that is happening. For some reason I really didn’t think that was going to happen. People have been asking me “Can you still see your feet?” OF COURSE I can see my feet. I’m not 600 lbs. But ask me if I can see my crotch!! Ask me if I feel confident to go down there with a razor. It was like Ray Charles was shaving me in the shower. But honestly. I cant let it go bush wild. To me, that is just super uncomfortable. And..gross. Anyhow, I made it out without severing anything. Even managed to shave my legs, which was alot less difficult than my nether-regions.

Baby is running out of room, majorly. Now when it moves, it HURTS. There are sharp things sticking out of my belly at any given moment. Last night in bed, I was lying on my side trying to sleep, and I swear that this kid did a flip and was trying to headbutt its way out of my right side. Something HARD and BIG was sticking out of my skin. I tried to push it back in (gently, of course) and it wouldn’t budge. I immediately sat up, thinking, “oh my god, this baby just turned breech. It is right side up and I’m going to have to walk around with this massive lump sticking out of my side, AND get a c-section.”
Moments later….the bum (it must have been the bum…) turned, and tucked itself back into the womb, instead of hanging out under my armpit.
It then proceeded to have the kind of hiccups where I was positive it was having chocolate-birthday-cake-induced-seizures inside of me. I could see the blankets moving in the dark.

It’s getting harder and harder to sleep.

xoxoxoxoxoxox
19 days and counting.

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Mmmm red dye number 4.

We went for a 45 min walk down by the river last night. By the time we were heading home, it felt like I was trying to keep a bowling ball from falling out of my crotch and I had some pretty funky contractions and back pain for the rest of the night. No baby though…
Going for another walk tonight!!
Today is Dustin’s 22nd birthday. I bought him some good running shoes on the weekend.
I made him a cute cake this afternoon and decorated it with icing and sprinkles.
Also, took off the first five layers of my right pinky nail with the potato peeler. Good times.
Tuesday= Laundry day.
The exciting life of ME.

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boooo baby.

Its sooooooooooooo hard to sleep lately. I cant get comfortable. And I constantly have this really annoying pain in my left hip/pelvic area. Actually, my whole lower back.
Can it be over now? Please? I promise I wont complain for a loooooong time if this baby comes early. How and I to endure a possible four more weeks of constant peeing and being achy?

BABY”S ROOM IS DONE! It looks great. I will post pictures in two days, when my camera is returned to me from on loan.

So…that means…I’m all ready. My bags are packed. Room is complete. House is clean. Food in freezer. Baby is in give ‘er position. Diapers are spring loaded. All systems go.

GET OUT OF MY BELLY!!

I am starting my 38th week in one day.

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happy friday :)

Last night I was lying in bed reading, and the baby as usual was going beserk. It was a little strange, I put my hand way down there and I could feel the baby moving its head from side to side. I dont know how to explain the feeling other than weird, kind of uncomfortable, but amazing.
More contractions and back pain today. Ow.
Cleaned the whole apartment today from top to bottom. Repotted some plants, rooted some other plants, rearranged some stuff, organized the bedroom, etc. Also ate 5 triple chocolate cookies with a glass of milk after napping for an hour and a half after reading my new book after sitting in a bubble bath for an hour with a big tall glass of Coke with lots of ice cubes. I really am trying to take advantage of these last days of just having myself to look after.
Tonight Dustin’s Aunt and Uncle are taking us out for supper for Dustin’s birthday. Whoohoo!! Got to love not cooking.

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Now please exit my body!!

I so knew it.
Prenatal appointment today. I said “Pretty sure the baby has dropped.”
Dr: “Usually that wont happen for a couple more weeks.”
Me: “I can feel the head moving like, low down where my pubic hair is.”
Dr, feeling around with her hands: “Your baby has dropped!”
Hmph!!

I REALLY hope this means its coming soon. Like, before February. I already have inconsistent contractions with back pain. Pretty sure I’ve lost some or all of the mucous plug. (Mmmm!)
And you know what? It probably will come early because SEARS is a fucking ridiculous operation and my crib probably wont be here until after the baby is born.
I do have a cradle the baby will be sleeping in regardless for the first couple weeks, but I cant help it. I am excited. I really, really, want to finish that baby room and just be able to go “Ahhhh, it’s done.”
From now until the kid pops out, I have a prenatal appointment every week.
I have also gained around 22 pounds since May. Whoohoo!!
Dr says I am average, and have thus far had a textbook pregnancy.
Cheers, ma dears!!

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